Creating habits

If I want to change my life I need to change my habits and I need to take responsibility for my own happiness. Right now my heart is sad and I just want to curl up into a ball. Im feeling hurt and scared. Worried if im making the right choices, if I'm making it too easy for you to walk away from this marriage. But that is not changing anything, that is falling back into my old ways. Instead I will choose to breathe. I will choose to pray. I will choose to trust. I will choose to have faith. Starting to put these into practice will create a habit in me. It isn't an easy task, but I can do it. I don't need anyone else approval, I just need to focus on my thought choices...push aside the negative hurtful thoughts and push forward the positive thoughts.