Breathe

I've woken up super stressed and freaking out the last two days. Am I making the right decisions? Should I be pushing to move down the hill? should I stay up the hill? Should I turn down a job if it isn't the right fit? Then I stop, I realize I cannot make every decision right now. I have to take this one day at a time or I will drive my self insane! Yesterday I chose happiness and peace, and I got it. Today I will do the same. A nice walk on the treadmill, lots of water, and strangely enough more coffee is how my day went differently. I didn't stop to read my bible either night so I believe that has a lot to do with not falling asleep at peace. I have to remember to create these habits in myself. Philippians 4:6-7 Don't worry about anything, but pray about everything. With thankful hearts offer up your prayers and requests to God. Then, because you belong to Christ Jesus, God will bless you with peace that no one can completely understand. And this peace will control the way you think." I've never read this version of this verse. It's definitely the most appropriate time for me to see it though. I love "And this peace will control the way you think." It's amazing how much peace has allowed this to happen in my life right now. Not carrying around anger opens up an entire new world. It won't be there constantly, I have to remember to pray for it "with thankful hearts". This peace, this lifestyle, this happiness and joy are all about choices. Choices of thoughts and choices of actions. I can only focus on one day at a time so I don't overload myself. I want to make a list of a month plan, a three month plan, a six month plan, but where is that going to get me? It's just going to create worry and doubt, then anger and frustration. So instead I will choose to put that list aside and focus on today, tomorrow will be here soon enough and I will focus on it then.